Summer

I can't believe how fast time is going by. It's already July and I feel like this year has just begun. A lot has happened and a lot has changed. To be quite honest, this year has been a complete disaster. I'm a true believer that everything in life happens for a reason. You may not always get the answers as to why it happens but you live and you learn.

I made this blog for me to write about things that make me happy in life...just to look back and read when I feel sad. I wish I could say I'm at a point in my life where I'm completely at bliss and happy but so much has changed these past few months that I know it's going to take me a long time before I find some peace. Right now, I need to be selfish and focus on myself. For the past three years my focus has been elsewhere and I think this is a chance for me to work on getting myself back on track.

My cousin YJ has been so supportive and patient with me. Everyone grieves and deals with heartbreaking situations differently. I become very closed up. I don't like dropping my mess onto friends or family members because I feel like such a burden on them. I like to figure things out on my own which is not a bad thing...but it's not a good thing either. YJ is my sister from another mister so if I'm hurting...she knows instantly just by looking at my face. She has helped me tremendously and I'd probably be glued to my bed crying if it wasn't for her. :)

I'm not sure how things are going to pan out but I'm ready for some change in my life. Everyone deserves to be happy and that's all I want in life-- happiness and laughter. :)

Jookie